Leaning to let go

~Learning to let go~

I have never been the kind of person to worry about myself. I always surround myself with people who can take care of me. I have been co-dependent on many people in my life and by doing that I am let down when I depend on someone else to make me happy. I learned yesterday that taking care of me first and depending on myself is the best option. I had been in a 5 year relationship that was headed for disaster from day one, but could not see that because of the need to depend on him to help me in everything. I thought that if I needed him he would stay, but boy was I wrong. I also noticed that I depend on my mom to always be there to help me out of a bad situation when all along what I needed was to help myself. I have been living with my brother for the past 3 years and although it has been nice to have him around I depend on him to be there. My friends....I always call them up and ask them for advice about stuff that I know I am doing right just to hear them say I am doing it correct. I wondered why that is and what is leading me to do things such as that. CO-DEPENDECY!!!! Learning to not depend on people is hard. It is not something you learn to break overnight.....it takes practice. Also it takes letting go of something that you might be depending on to break the cycle. After being in that bad 5 year relationship I learned that I don't need a man to make me happy and if he is not willing to stay then it isn't worth the trouble of trying to keep him. I can love my self and others will love me too. As for the mom situation well I am still working on that. We all need our mothers and you never know how long they will be in your life. So keep them close but don't let them control your mind. My brother and I are moving on with our adult lives. I have decided to move out and into my own apartment....yes you read that correctly MY OWN apartment. I am very scared but overly excited about this new adventure. I do rely on my friends a lot but a true friend will tell you that going with your own gut is probably the smart thing to do. Do what makes you happy and let go of the feeling of always needing someone around you to make you happy. Be your own person and do things for yourself. Sometimes letting go is the best thing you can do .